Now I understand 100% how irrational and illogical OCD can be. This blog post isn’t about me thinking that you’ve never thought about these things before, or that asking yourself these questions should cure your OCD. I just want it to be something to think about and try to help rationalize OCD. When I started thinking about these things it opened my eyes to how irrational my OCD really was. Part of OCD is performing rituals mental or physical to relief yourself from anxiety and feeling as if you are keeping you and others safe. People with OCD like myself know deep down that nothing they do can keep themselves safe but the doubt, fear and the very frightening and real thoughts we experience almost blocks out our rational brain.
Something that Sharon from the OCD Treatment Centre has said to me in the past is ‘If your rituals keep you safe, why aren’t you the safest and happiest person in the world’. We do rituals ultimately to keep ourselves and others safe in the long run to be happy because bad things are scary. Yet we are some of the most anxious and constantly frightened people and also very unhappy. If OCD rituals are that foolproof why aren’t we happy? why do we feel scared constantly? we should feel safe and happy that’s what are rituals are for, they’re there to protect ourselves and make us feel better. But when you look back at your time suffering with OCD when have you ever been happy and when have you ever felt truly safe. This is how illogical OCD is.
If our rituals work why don’t people like fire-fighters, the police or hospitals, pay people with OCD to do rituals for them to prevent fires, people loosing their lives and to prevent crimes to keep people safe? When I think of it like that OCD is laughable, it opens your eyes to how silly our OCD is. Can you imagine someone actually paying you to do rituals to keep people safe, do you think you’d say yes to being paid to keep people safe and prevent bad things from happening? or not, because you’d know really you wouldn’t be able to do that. Another thing I was thinking about is imagine If you were calling 999 asking for a fire-engine and the fireman said ‘one second, if I just do a certain ritual it should stop the fire from getting worse’ would you think ‘few, he’s done that now so the fire should be ok’ No! What if firemen said ‘Oh no I didn’t touch that thing 5 times, that’s why you’re having a fire’ would you blame him for the fire? I know we all know its illogical and silly but sometimes really thinking about how ridiculous us performing rituals is can be helpful. If you can try laugh at your OCD it becomes less scary and you can see it for what it is, a con that wants to keep you trapped and make you think you might be able to prevent bad things happening. Why are people around us fine without rituals? they’re happier than we are yet we are the ones who are meant to be safer and happier, because we have things in place to protect ourselves!
I know OCD isn’t as simple as being able to just think about how irrational your OCD is and to there for stop. But if you are undergoing treatment or are in the middle of a OCD exposure, sometimes remembering things like this can help. Sometimes hearing things like this or asking yourself things like this can open your eyes and make you see OCD for what it is, a thought and some strong feelings. If you can laugh at OCD how can it scare you and without the fear, where would your OCD be? gone. I hope this blog post makes sense to some of you reading this!
Stay strong little fighter,