Hope For OCD, Anxiety And Depression Sufferers

Calling all OCD, Anxiety and Depression sufferers, or anyone suffering with a mental illness, who feels as if they are at the end of their tether and there is no hope in them ever getting better. (Insert dramatic music) I am here to let you know why this is not true and I have bought PROOF…(myself).

So, I have some pretty big news, I have just got a job!

I haven’t held down a job since I left school and my last job was in 2011. I’d go into a job or college course and end up quitting because I couldn’t seem to hack it, my brain and body just didn’t seem to cope with normal life, that also goes for going out and having fun to. During school and since leaving school I have suffered with severe debilitating OCD, Anxiety and Depression, check out my OCD Story and Depression Story for a more indepth insight. OCD took over my life, I was suffering with terrifying intrusive thoughts and had lost all independence due to compulsions. I was at rock bottom. I remember thinking I would never get better, this was my life now, I didn’t see how I’d possibly become OCD free or even manage it to the point life was bearable.

I had various CBT therapy sessions during this time and also started medication (Sertraline) an antidepressant which I am still on now. It wasn’t until I found a therapy that worked for me in 2014 that I started to see hope for myself. You can also read about my therapy story to find out more on that. I started to fight OCD and my depression seemed to no longer be a constant black cloud over me. Since having therapy, I have started my blog and started to recover, but a job has been the biggest thing for me and my family, I still needed to achieve. Sometimes I thought I was ready and even had interviews, other times my OCD seemed to be creeping back in so I was focused on that. Since leaving school I haven’t had much of a social life which means my confidence is pretty low. Suffering with mental health problems can also send your self esteem to its lowest point, this also played a part in my fear of getting a job. I will admit I did get comfortable, I was in my comfort zone and I had got lazy. On top of that I was just terrified of working again and putting myself back out there, after the stress and hurt I went through of quitting and feeling like a failure after every job.

I can finally say I have a job after 4 years. I am terrified I won’t lie. I have thought about ringing up and saying that I change my mind about accepting the job, but I’m not going to. I will do it this time. I will be successful, it might not be easy and I’m sure there will be days where I struggle but I feel positive and happy, that this is the start of something for me. Which leads me back to there being hope for suffers like myself. I didn’t think I would get to this point whether it be getting a job, living with OCD but managing it or not being completely depressed and never wanting to do anything ever. I had such severe OCD It didn’t seem possible but it is. Am I completely anxiety and OCD free? No definitely not, but I’m not imprisoned by thoughts and compulsions like I was.  Which means you reading this or your friend or family member can also get to this point with the right help, support and patience. Please never give up because you can fight this to. I was in your position, I know how it feels. I know you feel like giving up but you can’t. There is hope and there can be freedom.

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I can’t tell you when you will recover and I won’t tell you it won’t be hard. You might relapse but that’s okay, because once you’ve got there, it will be worth it and you will see how strong you are.

Keep on fighting,

Anna

Feel Good Friday: You’re Exactly Where You’re Mean’t To Be

I want to start this blog post by apologizing for not writing a Feel Good Friday blog post for a while now. My OCD has been getting in the way of my blogging but I am back, not that anyone probably noticed there had been a shortage of blog posts (haha).

Today’s blog post is going to be about something I read on Tumblr a while ago, that really made me think. You know when you’re stuck in traffic, behind a slow car, in a que, late for something, missed your bus these are just examples of annoying and frustrating things that happen from day-to-day, the list could go on. I am here to tell you why these frustrating things are ok and why they could end up being positive, because you were exactly where you were supposed to be at that moment in time.

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Here is the eye-opening quote I found on Tumblr..

The head of a company survived 9/11 because
His son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn’t go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

One’s
Car wouldn’t start.

One couldn’t
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work but before.
He got there, he developed a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..

Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone…
All the little things that annoy me,
I think to myself,

This is exactly where
I’m meant to be
At this very moment.

Try to remember this when little things happen and you can feel that frustration bubbling up inside you and let it go.

Happy Friday beautiful people,

Anna

Feel Good Friday: Radiate Positive Vibes

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 “If you have good thoughts, they will shine out your face like sun beams and you will always look lovely”

This weeks Feel Good Friday blog post is all about being the kind of person you would want to be around. Its easy when we feel self-conscious, unhappy or angry to give off a negative aura, our facial expressions and body language changes. How we feel radiates from the inside out and can change the way people view us and feel around us. We’ve all been around someone who’s grumpy and negative all the time, its draining and its like having a black cloud floating around you. You and I can’t change how other people are, but we can change how we are, we can try our hardest to radiate good vibes from ourselves. Making others want to be around us, not only that but to make ourselves feel good and look happier there for making us look lovely like the quote above suggests. The more self-conscious you feel in a situation the more you draw attention to it and the more negative you are in a situation, the more negative and stressful it will become. Be that person people remember for being polite, happy and lovely, people will be to busy noticing those things rather than those flaws you worry about. Be the kind of person that inspires you to be a happier and better person, so you can be that person that inspires someone else.

Happy Friday,

Anna

Feel Good Friday: What If You Fly?

Today’s feel good Friday post is going to be about a quote I found on tumblr…

“What If I fall?

Oh but darling,

What If you fly?”

The reason I like this quote is not only for the positive message it gives but also because it relates to me personally. As you probably know I suffer with OCD and  the majority of OCD sufferers are plagued by the phrase ‘what if’ and it’s always about negative scary things. Why do you we always say ‘what if something bad happens?’ or ‘What if I embarrass myself during my work presentation?’ all examples of the sort of what if thoughts we all suffer with sometimes, It’s always negative isn’t it?

Next time I have a ‘what if’ thoughts I’m going to try to think of it in the opposite way. Take thoughts like the examples above and change them to ‘what if something good happens?’ or ‘what if my work presentation really impresses my boss and goes perfectly?’. The problem is we are quick to worry and look for the bad things in situations but struggle to see the good. Next time you think or someone else says ‘what if’ followed by a negative thought tell yourself or the other person ‘what if’ followed by something positive. Don’t let those ‘what if’ thoughts stop you from achieving things, don’t let them scare you into missing out on opportunity because until we try we can’t judge a situation.

Happy Friday,

Anna

Feel Good Friday: Rekindle Your Love For A Hobby

I expect we have all had hobbies and things we enjoyed doing in the past but have just grown up and forgotten about our love for them. For me its drawing. Last week I decided randomly that I wanted to draw a picture, when I was younger I used to love drawing and art was my favourite subject ever. I drew a picture and was quite pleased, it wasn’t perfect but I realised how much I loved drawing and how I’ve missed it and not even realised. I love getting creative, feeling like I’m going to give up on the drawing then carrying on and being pleased with the result! I think drawing is really therapeutic and its something I can do without using a laptop or phone (we all know we spend too much time on them). Even if it’s just a phase I think rekindling your love with a hobby you used to love is good, you never know it could be the start of something great and something you want to carry on doing!

Do something that you used to love doing that doesn’t involved technology whether it be drawing like me, painting, building something out of clay, building something in general, writing a story, bike riding, running, swimming, photography whatever it is, use your talent and passion. I think amongst are jobs and daily life we forget we are quite talented and had hobbies when we were younger,  it’s not like at school where there were so many subjects and things we were doing daily to realise what are talents are.Doing something you enjoy, that you can feel proud of and like you have achieved something. makes us feel good about ourselves! It’s nice to remember we aren’t just our jobs, our social lives and social media pages, we are talented individuals and we don’t use are talents enough. So here are the pictures I have drawn whilst rekindling my love for it, there not perfect and I am not an artist but considering how long its been since I’ve drawn a thing, I’m pretty pleased and I enjoyed doing it!

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Happy Friday beautiful readers,

Anna

Feel Good Friday: Weight Loss & Motivation

Firstly I want to apologise for not posting a Feel Good Friday blog post for the last couple of weeks now. Today I am going to be writing about something that’s very close to my heart at the moment, which is weight loss. As some of you may know a while ago now I started Weight Watchers, I was ridiculously proud at myself for losing 3 stone, also surprised! For a while now I have fallen off the band wagon and not been as motivated as I was, which means I have put on some of the weight I lost, not all of it though, which I suppose is a positive. But that’s exactly what I want to talk about, being positive and looking forward. I have been feeling so angry at myself for not carrying on with my hard weight loss work and keep thinking about how far I could have come by now, if I had kept going. I am now frustrated that I have to lose the weight that I had already lost, it seems like such a waste of time, I’ve been there done that, I just want to be where I was and lose more!

I am sure a lot of you guys relate to what I am going through, right? Loosing weight is not easy but instead of being frustrated with myself I need to look at this differently, and if you reading this are also facing similar problems I think you should to! Although those things I talked about above are all really irritating, what is being angry at myself going to achieve? Nothing, accept make me more negative and less motivated, which is the last thing I need! The thing is the only way to get back to where I was before I fell off the wagon is to do it again. If I want to change my life, feel confident and healthy its my only option. I need to take this as a lesson, to keep me motivated and stop me from quitting when it gets hard! If there is something positive you want to achieve, like I do with loosing weight the only way to get there is to do something about it. I feel like I am finally back in my Weight Watchers mind set, although exercise is something I need to work on doing more off. Diet is way more important than exercise and the fact I am eating less and tracking what I am eating, is progress to getting back to where I left off and to lose even more this time.

I want to share some of my favourite motivating and positive weight loss quotes from Tumblr with all of you. I hope this will be motivating for anyone also struggling with loosing weight like I am, and also motivating for me! Hang in there!

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These are just a few of the quotes I chose, there are so many out there!

Happy Friday and stay strong,

Anna

 

 

Feel Good Friday: A Bunch Of Things That Make Me Smile

So I’m going to be completely real with you guys and admit I am having a serious case of writers block at the moment. Some might say this post is silly and not very well thought through others might say its a good idea and hopefully it made them smile to, either way I’m posting it! This is going to be a load of random pictures, GIF’s and videos that I find way too amusing! I mean laughing and smiling makes you feel good right? so this post applies! I hope some of you find these things as funny as I do and that they make you smile even if it’s just a little! Ready?

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‘Nicking food of someone else’s plate’


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‘Trying to get in the bath after working out and having sore legs’

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Alpacas are just funny!

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‘I spy patrick’

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Apparently I find a kangaroo and a sloth scratching their stomachs amusing!

 

 

As you can see all the things I find amusing here are mostly animals because animals just do funny things! I could have picked tons more pictures, GIF’s and videos but I narrowed it down!

Let me know down below if any of these things made you smile or laugh!

Happy Friday,

Anna