Make Your Own Road

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Just a quick post, found this picture and quote and it really made me think, so you guys get the pleasure of me babbling on about it!

Life is full of ups and downs, so is a road, but in life we have the choice of where are road is going to take us. There is never one route, we can build our own roads and futures, it might not be easy to turn around and take another route but when you get on that road you want, you will be proud of how far you’ve come and finding your way will mean the road you built for yourself, from all the hard times will be the best. Never follow someone else’s road, be yourself and create your own road, create your own future. Make your own positive road and if you’re not happy with the current road your on, take a different route, learn and gain strength from it!

Anna ♥

Feel Good Friday

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I found this quote on Tumblr and I think its something we should all live by, not only always find a reason to laugh, but always find a reason to never give up when times get tough.  When all your problems feel so big, look for the simple things in life that make you a little more happy as its true what they say ‘It’s the simple things in life’, a lot of the time its the simple and little things we remember most or look back on and feel comfort in. It may not make you feel instantly better and like the quote says it may not add years on to your life but it will definitely add life to your years, life is short, so remember to laugh and appreciate those simple little things we love.

 I decided to write a list of 50 things I love or that make me happy, whether its something big or something small, I want to look at the list when I’m down and remember all the good things I have to not be down about and although I may not feel like there’s anything to feel happy about at the time that, I won’t always feel like that, just a little reminder to myself that, even if you feel down there are lots of reasons to never give up and to stay positive about!

1. Coming home from being in the rain or freezing cold, making a hot drink, running a bath and putting your cosy pjs on!

2. Coming home from being out and seeing my dog so happy to see me

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3. Singing at the top of your voice and playing that song you love at the time over and over again

4. Reminiscing about memories with family and friends

5.Looking forward to your favourite tv series and programs to come on tv

6. Getting into bed after a long day

7. Sitting in front of a fire when your really cold

8. Cute vintage shops

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9. Country pubs

10. The country side

11. Vases of flowers

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12. Looking at old photos

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13. Sleeping in freshly washed bedding

14. The smell of clean washing

15. The smell of coffee being made

16. Summer BBQ’S

17. That attraction between you and someone else

18. When my dog chooses to come and snuggle with me, it makes me feel special

19. Buying new things and unpacking it all when you get home

20.  Holding hands with someone you like

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21. Finding money you didn’t know you had

22. Feeling loved

23. Listening to old songs that I used to love

24. Eating your favourite food

25. The smell of freshly baked cupcakes

26. Bath bombs

27. Baking and decorating cup cakes

28. When you achieve something and feel proud of yourself

29. Lazy days

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30. Sunday roasts

31. Watching someone talented paint and draw

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32.  When you order something online and it finally arrives at the door

33. Markets

34. Having an ice-cold drink when you really thirsty

35. Candles

36. Inspiring quotes

37. When someone plays with my hair

38. When my hairs really soft and I play with it

39. Beaches

40. Walking my dog along the beach and seeing her play in the sea

41. When the sky and clouds look pretty

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42. DVD nights

43. Chinchillas

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44.  The smell of tea bags

45. Biscuits dipped in tea

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46. Romantic comedies

47. The zoo

48. Fairy lights and Christmas lights

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49.  When someone unexpectedly does something nice for you or buys you something

50. Polaroid photos

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I found writing this list really hard, probably because I forget to acknowledge these little things I love on a daily basis, let me know in the comments if you decide to write a list of 50 things that make you happy or you love, or link me to your post!

50 Facts About Me

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 So I thought it would be nice if you guys could get to know me a bit more, I write all these blog posts about my life, fashion and my opinions on things, yet you probably don’t know much about me as a person. I always see the ’50 Facts About Me Tag’ floating around on YouTube and blogs so I thought I’d give it ago.

1. I am 5 foot and 3.5 inches, don’t forget the half, its very important when you as short as me!

2. My feet we’re measured at a size 2.5, but because my feet are so wide, I have to where a size 4, they are what I like to call my pig trotters

3.My favourite place to get Coffee and Hot Chocolate is Costa

4. I’ve never tried a Starbucks, accept for the ones you can buy in Tesco

5. I have the smallest hands ever, and people are forever telling me, again like pig trotters

6. I have a real passion for Make up and fashion

7. I currently don’t own any High end make-up products, I will be changing that very soon

8. My daily make-up usually consists of winged eye-liner

9. I had braces for 2 years, I even had to wear a head brace at night (I give you permission to laugh)

10. I have to take tablets everyday called Setraline for depression and OCD

11. I have 9 piercings, my tongue, my nose, top of my ear, my rook, bit in-between my lobes and cartalidge and 4 in my lobes

12. I didn’t get my ears pierced until I was about 12 because I was so scared

13. I used to have a rabbit called Smoochey,  I have no idea where that name came from, my parents tried to change my mind but my heart was set on a pet rabbit called Smoochey!

14. I live in the south west of the UK, in Dorset, right by some amazing beaches

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15. I’m not really a fan of any alcohol, I don’t mind drinking some like amaretto, baileys or a cocktail but I’d rather have a non alcoholic drink (boring I know)

16. My birthday is the 25th of May 1994 (feel free to get me a present this year)

17. My star sign is a Gemini and I think it fits my personality perfectly 

18. My favourite drink is Belvoir Elderflower Presse, its amazing

19. I LOVE dogs

20. I have a slight obsession with anything cute with deer’s, foxes, elephants and owls on it, clothes, accessories or home decor you name it I will most likely like it

21. I have lots of tattoo ideas, but I have yet to man up and get them done

22.My Tumblr is like a book of pictures and quotes that I like or inspire me, its like a diary http://anna-mariee.tumblr.com/

23 .If I could be an animal I’d choose to be a dog, because they get lots of cuddles and attention and they live a pretty much worry free life

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24. I love having candles in my room, Yankee Candles are my favourite

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25. My favourite soap is Coronation Street

26.  I watch and I am subscribed A LOT of You Tubers, if I’m not watching TV I will be watching YouTube videos

27. My feet are always cold

28. I hate my feet and neck being tickled

29. One of my favourite foods is Pasta

30. I get told I look like Katy Perry rather a lot (I don’t, but I wish I did)

31. Music is EVERYTHING to me, not sure what I’d do without it

32. My ideal careers would be You tuber, florist, dog groomer or something involving fashion and make-up

33. I worked at McDonald’s once upon a time

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34. I love hot bubbly baths and I pretty much always watch something on my laptop in there

35. I call my mum ‘Mother Duck’ I don’t know why, I think I heard people say ‘Mother Hen’ but I’ve always said Duck and its stuck, she calls me ‘ling’ short for duckling – quack

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36. I’ve been single for far too long

37. I have blue eyes

 
38. My favourite holiday or special occasion is Christmas, I love everything about it

39. I love all things vintage

40.  I have never succeeded in putting fake eyelashes on successfully

41. I used to have white blonde hair when I was younger

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42. I can never decide on a favourite film because I love too many

43. My favourite fruit is Mango

44. If I really like a song I play it over and over again until I no longer like it

45. I have a green TY beanie buddy rabbit called Hiperty, that I’ve had since I was young and I still sleep with her in my bed

46. My favourite chocolate is Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

47. One day I want to go to New York near Christmas, as I’ve heard the lights are pretty amazing

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48. I hate cooked carrots, I can only eat them raw

49. I HATE the feeling of talcum powder, flour and things like dried clay on my hands, it literally makes me want to gag, even thinking about it makes me feel uncomfortable

50.  I love being in comfy pjs

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Feel Good Friday.

“My whole life I’ve been telling myself “don’t be afraid.”

And it is only now that I’m realizing how stupid that is. Don’t be afraid. Like saying “Don’t move out of the way when someone tries to punch you” or “don’t flinch at the heat of a fire” or “don’t blink.” Don’t be human.

I’m afraid and you’re afraid and we’re always going to be afraid, because that’s the point.

What I should be telling myself is “be afraid but do it anyway.”

Live anyway.”

I don’t know who wrote this quote, it came from a picture on Tumblr, but the writing is too small so I thought I’d type it out. I love this quote so much, as someone with anxiety and OCD I feel like this should be my motto, even if you don’t have anxiety everyone gets afraid so this applies to you too.

As soon as we feel fear we go into panic mode because of our ‘fight or flight’ instinct, which we can’t change but we can change how we react to the feeling of fear. Fear itself cannot hurt you, it’s a really awful feeling but it’s not life threatening its simply a chemical reaction in our body, an emotion.  We can go our whole life’s running from fear or we can accept we are always going to feel fear, but to not let that fear stop us from doing the things we want too, which I myself know is not as easy as it sounds. But if you aim to do at least one thing each day that scares you, that’s a good start and it makes you feel good about yourself when you stand up to fear, it makes you feel proud.I think at the moment whilst battling OCD everyday all day for me is scary, constantly trying not to give into rituals.

Thank your body for trying to keep you safe when you feel anxiety and fear, that’s all your body is doing, it gives us adrenaline ready to either ‘fight or flight’ which in certain situations is necessary and a good thing, but a lot of the time there is no real danger e.g picking up a spider or public speaking, these can be anxiety provoking things but there is no real danger in doing these things (unless you’ve got a deadly spider on your hands), that’s not something I recommend. You know what I mean, I’m not saying go do wild crazy things just because it scares you, I mean do the things you really want to do but fear stops you. It’s hard to have a healthy relationship with fear but by doing something tiny everyday I think that’s the starters to a healthier relationship with it.

Emotions are always temporary, the fear and anxiety won’t last forever, it feels really bad but it will pass. Don’t let anxiety and fear stop you from achieving good things, accept its always going to be there but live anyway!

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Feel Good Friday.

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So this post isn’t about buying things you can’t afford and getting in to debt because life is short, it’s about treating yourself. These days we all work so hard for our money yet we feel guilty when we spend some money on ourselves unless its something we feel like we really need which is practical. I’m not suggesting for one second you should buy whatever you want whenever you want, but I think its important to treat yourself sometimes, for no reason. Why shouldn’t you buy those shoes, or why shouldn’t you buy that top, handbag, make-up or whatever it is you’ve been eyeing up. Of course its normal to feel slightly guilty about spending a lot of money, but  what is the point in working so hard for money if you can’t even buy yourself something nice with.

Be sensible with your money but remember if you’ve got some spare cash and you want to treat yourself, do it. Whether it’s getting your hair done, your nails done or having a massage, I don’t know whatever it is, you deserve a treat. It doesn’t have to cost money, just taking some time out to do something for yourself, such as a bath with candles or relaxing in front of the TV with a film or reading a book you like. We forget to look after ourselves and I believe it’s the simple things in life that can lift our moods. I think we’re so busy worrying about everyone and everything around us we forget about making ourselves happy, so treat yourself, and don’t let anyone make you feel bad.

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Reflecting on 2013.

Another year is almost over and it will soon be 2014, scary I know! At the start of every year I look back and think this year will be different, but then I sit back  and do nothing, and before I know it another birthday has been and I’m thinking ‘I’ve still got ages to change yet, then a new year is suddenly a couple of days away’! Now I have had some struggles with my OCD and depression, but I feel like this could be my year, I have a lot more control over my OCD and moods! This year has been better than previous ones, I have achieved some things such as going to an intensive therapy and fighting OCD, losing weight and even starting this blog! But with me it’s just ‘doing’ everything, getting a job, getting out and about, losing more weight etc I want to do it so bad yet the thought of it all scares me so much and gives me so much anxiety, I just keep putting it off until another year of staying home with no job or social life has gone by!

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All of the things I know I need to do scare me so much but I don’t want to waste any more years, I have wasted so many years with a life revolved around OCD, anxiety and depression. Its easier said than done but this has to stop, I don’t think I will ever feel ready to get a job but the longer I put it off the more scary it will be too me.

This year I am determined to not let my problems make me a prison in my own house, I feel like I am able to do all these things I want, but I am my own worst enemy and don’t believe in myself, I can’t see myself working and having a massive social life again, its been so long it seems alien too me.  I know what I need to do, it’s just doing it, I remember  my parents we’re saying ‘Anna you need to sort yourself out, before you know it another year will be gone and you won’t have done anything’ and I would reply ‘Yeah I will I have ages until another year yet, in my own time I will’ which makes me sound lazy and spoilt ‘in my own time I will’ but it’s not that, I’m just so so scared of stepping outside of this comfort bubble I’ve built around myself and I don’t want to burst it and see what’s outside, but I do at the same time.

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Even writing this now and really thinking about the last 3 or 4 years of my life where I’ve really not done a lot, makes me feel so many things, disappointed, nervous, lost, upset, angry etc but at the same time this is how im comfortable and how in a way I like to be now. This year though, 2014, will be my year. I write that with doubt, but why? I am the only person stopping myself, it is all possible if I allow it to be.

I don’t want to be reading this at the end of 2014 and having that feeling of regret and disappointment about myself, that I spent another year doing nothing, it is such a waste of life. At times I see no point in life it all seems so pointless, but why is it? I should be making the most of it and thinking ‘Well today I feel like life is pointless, but tomorrow I might not’ put that mood to one side and carry on living my life as I am here, and I’m not going to feel any better doing nothing and I definitely won’t find the answer to ‘What is the point?’ sitting on my bum moping all day.

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So I thought I would write a couple of the main things I want to achieve with in this year, seeing it written down and knowing other people will be reading this and maybe even inspiring other people to do the same might help me, as I don’t want to let my lovely readers down do I? ♥

  • Get some form of job
  • Carry on losing weight (currently lost 3 st)
  • Go out more
  • Carry on blogging and making my blog grow!
  • Keep fighting OCD and get better at it

This may all look like simple easy things, but to me there huge changes, I really need to do this, so if any of you bright sparks have any ideas on ways to keep myself motivated or tips in general, feel free to message me on here, Twitter and Tumblr!

I hope 2014 is going to be YOUR year too, Happy New Year!

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Internet Obsessed.

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I found this picture on Tumblr and it made me think loads about how obsessed we all are with the internet. We even panic when we go out somewhere for a bit and there’s no WiFi or phone signal. How did we use to cope without phones, social networking and the internet?

We rely on it so much in life to cope and keep in touch, this picture made me think we should be living our lives not updating our Facebook and Twitter pages with pointless statuses about what we’re doing, we should just be doing it and enjoying it. I’m a big social network user myself and I often think how on earth would I cope without the internet and my mobile phone, which is sad really, that I feel like without it I wouldn’t know how to cope. I do think we would all lead much healthier fulfilling lives without so much internet use but at the same time I love the internet and have been bought up in a generation where the internet is necessary and a big part of our lives whether it’s for work or entertainment. For example, if the power goes out, if I don’t have internet connection on my phone, I suddenly feel lost, bored and don’t know what to do with myself.

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I could shut down all my social networking sites I use and live an internet free life, but in this day and age without those things I’d feel so unconnected with everyone and everything! I’d like to think I could go a day without internet but I think I’d find it quite hard, which is awful really, trouble is when I feel even slightly bored I find myself scrolling through Facebook, twitter and Tumblr etc to keep myself entertained.  As much as I enjoy being able to look at my Facebook and twitter from my phone, I do think we would be better off not having internet on our phones. We spend so much time checking our phones and its just another time for us to be revolving are lives around the internet, as if we don’t do that enough at home and work, so we also need to have an internet source in our pockets when we’re not near a computer. How ironic I am talking about the amount we use the internet, whilst using it to write a blog post!

I love to look through photo albums of when I was younger reminiscing over all the good times I’ve had and the moments I was too young to remember. We no longer make photo albums full of cute photos that had to be taken to a shop to be developed, we store them all on our computers and upload them to social networking sites. I remember having a favourite video or DVD when I was younger, but not many people want to buy CD’s and DVD’s any more as you can listen and watch so much via internet, I wonder if DVD’s and CD’s will fade out in the future because we can watch it all online? I think the internet has provided us with some very  helpful uses, but at the same time I think it has made us reliant on it.  So do we need to accept that we are a generation internet obsessed people or should we take our own steps to living a less technology based life?

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