Update: Where Have I Been?

Why hello there my lovely readers, long time no blog post, its been far too long!

This blog post is simply going to be a little update of whats gone on since I last wrote and also explaining a little bit about whats going on with me and why I haven’t been around! Since my last blog post I turned 21, so its official  I am a legal adult in every country. I had a lovely Birthday where I felt extremely spoilt, loved and grateful to have such amazing family around me. I received so many amazing gifts and went for my first ever wagamama’s which I can confirm lived up to its hype. The famous katsu curry was delicious and the katsu banana with salted caramel ice-cream pudding was perfection to say the least. Not only that I then got taken out again, this time for afternoon tea for the first time, with my mum.




So why haven’t I written a blog post in so long? I think that’s due to a number of things, let me try to explain the best I can without giving away too many personal details. I hadn’t realized until recently how disconnected I had become to everything around me and it’s hit me hard realizing what I’ve become like. I’ve become self-destructive, lazy, depressive and someone I don’t like very much, a tired, negative and depressed girl who stopped taking care of herself. I’ve been in my own little world and not a positive one. I became uninterested in blogging and most other things around me. Blogging has been one extremely positive thing I’ve kept going until recently and I miss it. I miss channeling my creative thoughts, communicating within the blogging community and doing something I enjoy, but temporarily forgot I did. I want to better myself now and return to reality as I feel like I’ve been running away from my problems, saying I’m trying, saying tomorrow or next week or next month I will try to sort my self out, when in reality for the last 5 years I’ve been saying the exact same thing.

Instead of my OCD being the problem or my anxiety, I had just become self-destructive in many areas of my life that I hadn’t noticed until recently when it’s all hit me and I’ve had some home truths from people around me. Even writing this post I can feel my eyes filling with tears because I feel like I’ve been so lost and still am but finally realizing this and taking steps to better myself. Its upsetting me realizing how vacant I’ve been, living a life that is mainly on my computer and slowly self-destructing and losing my self-worth on a downward spiral. Its like I stopped caring about looking after myself.

I suppose we all lose ourselves sometimes and until we realize we have, we can’t change. If you are feeling lost in life like me, please know that you are not alone and you can and will find yourself just like I will soon. No more negativity, I can and will find myself this time, as can you, you just have to believe. I’ve stopped brushing everything that’s wrong with my life under the carpet now, and if you know you’re struggling you have to as well. Just know that it may hurt and be hard to deal with thinking about, accepting and acknowledging these problems you’re facing and changes you need to make but once you’ve done that you can finally start to heal and take steps to change just as I am. If anyone is struggling and feeling lost always feel free to contact me via my Tumblr ask box – anonymous or not, my Facebook Page or my twitter, all links will be below. Your not alone, I am here for you and will support you.

I’m ready to start making changes now, are you?


I’m back ready to blog, I don’t know if anyone actually noticed I was gone but I want to thank any of my followers and new followers who have stuck around even though I have failed to write recently.




Stay strong,


A Letter To Myself | Weight Loss

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If you have followed my blog for a while now, you will know I have done a couple of blog posts I call ‘Letters To Myself’. You can read these in the links just below, to familiarize yourself with the concept, as this one will be very similar:

A Letter To My Younger Self

A Letter To Yourself For When You’re Struggling

I have wanted to lose weight for a long time now, to make myself happy and gain confidence. I really struggle with cravings for naughty foods and tend to binge eat. I lost 3 stone so I know I can do it, it’s just sticking to it. Which is when I came up with this idea incorporating my ‘Letter To My Self’ blog posts. I am going to write a short ‘letter’ to myself for when I am desperately craving foods I know I shouldn’t have or when I feel like going on a binge.

 When your mind is telling you, you REALLY want that piece of cake, that burger or take away its hard to take control and say NO. It feels like there’s a magnetic force pulling you towards the foods you know you shouldn’t eat. I think during those moments you lose sight of all the reasons why you want to lose weight, having that cake seems like a better idea, until afterwards. This is something you reading this can do to, write it down or type it out and print it off, to read when your on the verge of breaking your healthy eating plan. Reading a letter you yourself have written when in a positive mind set is the perfect reminder you need. This is your very own personal letter containing all those reasons you want achieve your weight loss goal, its not a quote or picture off the internet.

 Dear Me,

Let me guess you’re craving multiple bars of chocolate, cakes, sweets, sugary drinks and fatty foods? well let me remind you why you don’t want to give into these feelings.

♥ Cravings will pass. I know it feels like torture not to allow yourself to have something you really want to eat, but that feeling will pass. Wait an hour or two before you give in to these cravings and impulses, it may have been and gone by then. If you really can’t resist picking on something, choose a healthier option such as, apple or banana with peanut butter or a healthy cereal bar. Have one thing only, you know more than one of something is excessive and these are the habits you know you want to break.

 ♥ Remember why you want to lose weight. You know you need to do this for yourself, you want this so bad. Think of the confidence you will gain and think of all the things your weight stops you doing, because of your lack of confidence. Imagine walking into a room and not instantly thinking ‘I bet people think I’m fat’, but feeling good instead.

♥ Imagine going shopping for clothes and not getting into the changing room and feeling upset at the sight of yourself. Imagine all the clothes you could buy and feel amazing in, no restrictions on styles of things you think will suit your body shape, just pick anything you like and try it on with no qualms.

♥ Not only will you look good, you will feel good. Imagine how much lighter and healthier you will feel.

♥ This time next week, month or even year, where do you want to be? Will that naughty food or multiple chocolate bars be worth it? Or will loosing another pound, another half a stone or being at your goal be 100x more worth it. I think you know the answer. A month or year down the line, don’t let yourself be wishing you had kept going and wondering how far you could have come by now. Do it and you’ll see.

♥ Only you can make it happen, why dream about how amazing it would feel to lose weight, when you can make that dream come true!

♥ That work out you are dreading is going to get you where you want to be  faster, make you fitter and its only one hour out of your whole day.

Love from,

postive you x

Let me know in the comments if you plan on doing this or if you think its a good idea?


1st Of December | Count Down To Christmas

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So it’s the 1st of December, which means it’s officially the count down to Christmas. I know what you’re thinking ‘another over excited Christmas lover’ well its true! I could not help but write a blog post relating to Christmas, now I think it’s officially acceptable to get excited for it. For those of you shouting ‘bah humbug’ well you’ll either loath this blog post or maybe it will get you in the festive mood and you’ll love it. My blog from now until Christmas is going to be filled with blog posts such as gift guides, stocking fillers, party fashion, Christmas jumpers and festive make up looks!

As a start to my Christmassy blog posts, I thought why not share all the reasons I am looking forward to about this festive month.

Putting up the Christmas tree and decorating the house

Cute Christmas decorations

Log fires

♥ Mince pies

♥ Wrapping presents

Drinking mulled wine

♥ Family

Christmas shopping

 Cosy, cute PJ’s

 Slippers and cosy socks

 Giving presents

Receiving presents

Christmas lights

♥ Pigs in blankets

Christmas dinner

♥ Candles, candles and more candles

♥ Festive fashion and festive make up

♥ Baths with, Christmas Lush Cosmetics bath bombs

My dog in her Christmas Santa jumper

♥ Christmas blog posts

Scarves, hats, gloves, boots and coats

Costa Coffee, black forest hot chocolates and chai tea lattes

Listening to my favourite Christmas song ‘The Pogues – Fairytale Of New York’


What are you most looking forward to this Christmas? and what would you add to the list? Let me know in the comments!


Healthy Alternatives.


I don’t know about you but Christmas for me has consisted of a lot of over eating of things that aren’t very good for me! It’s hard not too when everyone else is tucking into that box of chocolate or offering you mince pies and cream, I have no will power this time of the year. But as I said in my last post with 2014 nearing I am hoping to get back on track with my healthy eating at Weight Watchers. I started weight watchers at the start of January last year and managed to lose 3 stone, but as it got closer to Christmas and I was lacking in motivation, the healthy eating life style began to be a bit neglected!  So I’ve picked out some of my favourite, healthy/lower in calorie alternatives to popular foods, hopefully this will give you some ideas and remind myself of what it was I was eating before my little blip.

Healthy Alternatives

Nakd – Cocoa Orange Fruit & Nut Bar

These bars are a great alternative to cereal bars or even chocolate bars. They contain Dates (40%), Cashews (40%), Raisins (14%), Cocoa (5%), Orange oil.  Which is really good if you compare that to a cereal bar or chocolate bar from the supermarkets, they have no added preservatives or sugar to them! They are really nice as a sweet treat and good for on the go to just pop in your bag and take out with you.  You can find these at Holland and Barrett or check your local super markets e.g the Tesco near me stocks them, they come in a variety of flavours, so take your pick.

Wholemeal Carbs

Always choose the wholemeal option when it comes to food, they have the same number of calories in them but white bread and pasta etc  are all refined carbohydrates. Refined carbohydrates lead to rapid sugar spikes which is when the sugar is processed by are cells as fuel, this leaves you feeling hungry and less satisfied quicker than if you we’re to eat wholemeal carbohydrates. This is because whole meal carbs are not absorbed into our cells as quickly, there for leaving us feeling fuller for longer. Which when eating healthy is an important thing, if you can keep yourself fuller and less likely to snack then that’s always a good thing. Whole meal bread also contains more fibre which is a vital part of a healthy balanced diet. Science lesson over!

Frozen Yogurt

Frozen yoghurt isn’t that good for you don’t get me wrong, but its much lower in calories than Ice-cream, depending on which ones you get so do check the ingredients and calorie content before chowing down on big tubs of the stuff! The one I have shown in the picture above is the Tesco Frozen Yogurt Mango & Passion Fruit. This is perfect if your craving a dessert after dinner!

Kallo Thick Organic Rice Cakes

Rice cakes they sound and look bland, but I think they are pretty tasty topped with the right things. They are very low in calories, contain no hidden ingredients, just organic whole grain rice and a bit of sea salt. These are a great alternative to the classic cream cracker or any crackers really, you put pretty much anything that takes your fancy on to one of these and they are nice a light so they don’t leave you feeling bloated or weighed down. You definitely don’t need to feel guilty about eating a lot of these (with in reason). I like to top these with a low-fat cream cheese, smoked salmon, cucumber and sprinkling of black pepper! You can get these from most supermarkets, it doesn’t have to be Kallo rice crackers there all pretty much the same.

Vita Coco 100% Pure Coconut Water and  Orange Juice With Bits Not From Concentrate

I hadn’t heard of Coconut Water until recently, but I’m very glad I came across it as I think it’s really tasty and refreshing. It’s not the cheapest of drinks but it is much healthier than any squash or smoothies. It’s the perfect drink for the summer, it’s very refreshing and hydrating but a little more exciting than a glass of water. You can find this at various places, such as  Holland And Barret or again check your local supermarket, Tesco near me stocks it! This is probably a no brainer but Orange juice NOT from concentrate, look at the ingredients on any juices your buying, if it’s not 100% pure fruit I wouldn’t bother with it, juice from concentrate contains a ton of sugar and preserves! If you have your own juicer then I’d definitely recommended creating your own juice as you know exactly what’s in it and its fresher.


These are just two yogurt one is a extremely natural yogurt and another not quite as natural but very filling and yummy! The most natural yogurt I have found that’s not just plain yogurt is the Rachel’s Organic Low Fat Vanilla Yogurt , the ingredients list on this is nice and short which is usually a good sign. It contains , Organic Low Fat Yogurt,Organic Sugar  and Organic Vanilla Extract. This does come in low-fat with other flavours depending which supermarket you shop at, and also normal non low-fat flavours too. The other yogurts I have been enjoying lately are the Danio yogurts, there not the cheapest but I do think there worth the money. There basically very thick yogurt with a fruit layer at the bottom, which I find usually bumps the calories up a lot. These aren’t the lowest calorie yogurts out there but they are really filling because the yogurt is so thick and you get quite a lot in a pot. They contain no artificial flavours, colours or preserves and come in 0% fat and non low-fat flavours.

Kallo Organic Milk Chocolate Thin Rice Cakes

This time I’m talking rice crackers covered in milk chocolate one side. I think these are actually really nice and a good snack when you fancy something sweet or something with a bit of chocolate. They don’t contain any artificial flavours, colours or preserves, the ingredients are Organic Milk Chocolate (59%) (Organic Cane Sugar, Organic Cocoa Butter, Organic Full CREAM MILK, Powder, Organic Cocoa Mass),Organic Whole grain Brown Rice. Again you can find these in Holland and Barrett or check your local supermarket.


I am obsessed with these little bags of popcorn, they are perfect snacks, really satisfying and filling but also light and not too heavy in the stomach. They come in savoury and sweet flavours such as Sweet And Salty, Sea Salt and Fiery Worcester Sauce And Sun dried Tomato. Me and my mum always say when eating a bag of these that they seem to go on forever, which is good because it makes you feel full. I think it’s really good that they come in small bags as if I have big bags of popcorn there’s no stopping me, so the fact that once this little bag is gone there is no more is a good thing! They are much better for you than crisps or other brands of popcorn and I personally think they are really tasty! I would also recommend Metcalfe’s Skinny Topcorn especially in the flavour chocolate crackle, but there really hard to find I’ve only come across them in Topshop, weirdly enough, and other flavours in Primark!  I know super markets do big bags  of some flavours which is fine if you have more self-control than me! You can find propercorn in your local supermarket or look around online and the same goes for Metcalfe’s Skinny Topcorn.

Remember a balanced diet is healthy, don’t restrict yourself from everything you love, all in moderation. If you have any healthy food recommendations I’d love to hear about them!