A Letter To Yourself For When You’re Struggling

A while ago now I wrote a blog post on if I could write a letter to my younger self what I would tell young me from what I’ve experienced so far, you can read that HERE. It lead me to this similar idea that may be helpful for when you struggling. You can write a letter when you’re happy for when you are next down in the dumps e.g depressions getting you down, anxiety bad or OCD is being a pain, whatever the reason as a reminder that these feelings can pass and it’s not as bad as it feels right now, to give you hope when you’re lacking it. Little tips of things you’ve learnt/ know how to deal with but in that moment find hard to remember and turn to.

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Dear Me,

I take it you’re having a tough time as you’re reading this letter. As you are writing this you are feeling quite positive, you’re OCD isn’t that bad and you have been dealing with it really well. You’ve been succeeding in not seeking reassurance so much and that’s a really big step for you. I know you’re probably feeling like crap but what you’re feeling will pass. I mean those feelings aren’t that bad for you right now as you type this which means they can pass again. Remember everything you learnt at therapy and remember no matter how scary OCD is being, it’s just the disorder and you know how to beat it.

♥ Remember anxiety and panic can’t hurt you, it feels awful but it’s just a chemical reaction in your body. Try to stay calm and If you can’t it will pass, you’re not losing control, your panicking.

♥ Remember Anna ‘the more you think, the deeper you sink’ – Sharon Davies from The OCD Treatment Centre. You can ruminate about that scary, uncomfortable OCD thought you just had but you’re only going to make yourself feel worse, feed OCD and never come to an answer on whether that’s your true self speaking or if it was just a random OCD thought. You cannot think yourself into inner peace, inner peace comes through living in the moment.

♥Remember to practice Mindfulness, to calm you down when the anxiety is too much.

♥Remember there is no such thing as the thought police, there is nothing wrong with the thoughts themselves, it’s the belief you have attached to the thoughts. E.g certain thoughts mean you’re a bad person, if you don’t do such and such something bad will happen.

♥ Any compulsion you feel compelled to do relating to your OCD’s topic, ignore, it WILL be OCD. No what if’s, buts or maybe’s it will be. Any thought that makes you feel anxious relating to your OCD topic, will also be OCD, no ‘what if this time it isn’t OCD’ that is OCD speaking. A thought, followed by anxiety, followed by feeling the need to do something a certain way, seek reassurance or ruminate WILL be OCD.

Remember everything you’ve been taught and try to teach everyone else,  you can get through this.

Love from,

Positive and  currently at peace, You.

Feel Good Friday: Hello May!

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I do not understand where the months go, at the start of the New Year I wrote a blog post about what I want to achieve this year and how months and years go by,  then before I know it nothings changed, you can read that  post HERE. I can’t believe it’s already may and I’m starting to notice how nothing has changed again. May isn’t a significant month like the January is because of the New Year, but I will be turning 20, which I’m not going to lie scares the crap out of me!! I remember turning 18 and it only feels like 5 mins ago, not a lot has changed since then. This is a ‘feel good Friday’ blog post so I don’t want to focus on the fact my life hasn’t moved on much, instead I want to focus on starting to achieve things I want to. To get the ball rolling I’m going write a mini may list of little things I want to start achieving  or that I am looking forward to this month. Obviously these achievements and aspirations are not only for the month of May but it’s almost a little to do list to remind me, get me started and motivate me! So here goes..

  • Firstly although turning 20 scares me, I am excited its my birthday. Who doesn’t like having a whole day dedicated to celebrating your birth where you receive present, eat too much cake and spend time with your family!

 

  • May is usually slightly warmer than April, which is always something to look forward to. Although, its been raining and thundering in England the past couple of weeks, oh the joys of an English spring/summer! The sun seems to not only brighten up the sky’s, but my mind also feels brighter and fresher when its summer!

 

  • More weight loss, so as some of you may know I am a Weight Watchers member, I managed to lose 3 stone but then I fell of the band wagon and put some of it back on. I have recently started getting back in to it and I’ve started doing my ‘Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred’ Work out again. So I am hoping the month of may, is going to be a good one on the weight loss front (plus all the other months to)!!

 

  • Now here’s a big one for me, this crosses my mind every month and is probably my biggest challenge. I haven’t had a long-term job pretty much ever due to my OCD and Depression, I have had short-term jobs but due to the problems I was going through,  I would quit. I am getting stronger at managing these problems and know I need to start looking for a part-time job soon, yes I probably am putting it off. It’s a big deal to me though, its scary and Its going to be out of my comfort zone. During May I want to start to just look around for jobs and maybe apply for a couple of part-time ones. I feel almost ready, but fear is stopping me, but I am hoping turning 20 will motivate me into taking the plunge, I don’t want to leave it much longer if I can help it!

 

  • I don’t thank my blog, readers and followers enough. It means so much to me that people take the time to read my blog posts and even find help and comfort in some of my mental health posts. I am looking forward to my blog growing and having lots of lovely new followers and seeing where this blogging journey takes me!

 

  • Another thing that’s on my to do list is cooking and blogging Weight Watchers recipes! I always say I’m going to do this but I never do. I have already started trying some new ones out, I recently made banana oatmeal pancakes, kale chips and a pesto and mascarpone filled chicken breast with home-made bread crumbs, yum! Here’s to many more!

 

  • This is a stupid one, but I am looking forward to it none the less, I love Catfish the tv show and there is a new series starting on the 12th of may on MTV. Does anyone else look forward to new series of TV shows? I don’t think I am the only one! TV has really been boring me recently so I hope some new series will be coming out. I miss My Mad Fat Diary already!

 

Let me know in the comments what you’re looking forward to in may, or things you want to start achieving. Also let me know if you decide to write a little reminder list to!!

Happy Friday and Happy May!

Anna